Alicia & Irfan

Ne-Yo - Mad

2010-06-05T03:17:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry...

What

2010-06-05T02:38:00.001+08:00

Is this burning feeling in the heart that i am feeling.. I want to take it out and put it under running water.

En esta vida

2010-05-25T03:46:00.002+08:00

So today's court session was inconclusive.. Got to drag it till July.
Can't wait for it to end.. The amount of mental torture its putting me in.. I'm going to falter.

Alot of things for me to worry about.. But mostly its about accomodation.

I'm suppose to be asleep, i got work tomorrow. But i just cant get my brain to rest. It just keep on thinking and thinking and thinking. This uncertainty is certainly killing me.

Sometimes i just want to be selfish and escape.. letting go of all this troubles.. But i just can't.

Fucking useless me.

It's the way you make me feel.

2010-05-11T15:33:00.003+08:00

When I look into your eyes,

Everytime you smile at me,

Oh I go weak inside,

Baby I just can't hide my love..

With love,

Irfan

A long long post

2010-05-08T01:57:00.012+08:00

Yeah.. as the title suggests, this is gonna be one hell of a long post. To make up for the long hiatus, this is my way of making up for all the long overdue items that i'm suppose to post.

First up.

Yup. My parents are going thru a divorce right now. It could have been much simpler in a sense that if both parties are able to settle their issues amicably. But sadly, nope. Like in most divorce cases, both parties are fighting for the assets and what nots, trying to be the right one in this lose lose situation and pin pointing fingers on who is to be blamed.

I respect that my mom knows clearly what she wants, but my dad, is a different story altogether. To make things simpler, lets just say he is very much confused right now.

Times are hard, physically i am already accustomed to it. I am already able to not hear nor see what i want to exclude, but psychologically, the burden is mounting. As the court date is drawing nearer, tension really do run high in this stupid place. I think i have kept my cool darn well.. but its also due to gf and soadiq's presence that made it possible. Thank you love, for being there.. Thanks bro for being there.

*I wish people spend more time on their marriages than on their wedding.*

Next up, I am now posted to Neurology discipline. A far cry from my previous Infectious and Dermatological disease discipline.

Not that i really like this current discipline.. But i think it will provide a great learning platform for me to move on to something better. =) I will therefore slog my ass of at work, so that i can build a steady and bompipi foundation for my career. I will succeed. Because its essential. I want to lead a good life, and i want to be able to provide comfortably for love and her mummy.

Working in the Neuro ward is definitely not easy, but i am determined. So please people.... give me your support!

There was alot of outings, whether it was with K & G (Kenneth & Grace) or with the LBEM (La Ballroom En Masse) or with the Awesomes BB gang.. Visited many places that we never knew existed in Singapore.. Like the Cheesecake Cafe for instance... Fantawonderbulous place it is!

The Interior Decor & ambience, i give it a two thumbs two toes up.

Love and me after a gastronomically sastifying meal. =D

We had a sort of picnic and kite flying session and it was nothing lesser than Marvellous! Take a look at the pics!

Love was excellent in Kite flying. I dropped the spool twice. She flew the kite liken to a new found freedom.

Of course we were'nt the only ones there...

Beautiful you. =D

Kites to me, they're like flowers blooming in the sky.

The best part about it was of course the preparation where we both rushed to complete Mission Impossible, possible. =) **Loves**

And now this is for you my Dear,

As we both not only have commitment to each other, we have new commitments too.. Be it work or family. I understand that our carefree time like we used to have will be hard to come by, but i want to make this clear..

That i enjoy spending time with you, be it for a short while or for as long as it takes because you are the best that i can ever have. =)
That i cherish every moment that i have with you, because each and everyone will be something for us to look back at and laugh at, to reminisce at.
That no matter how busy i am, i am more than willing to put aside time to be with you, to have a simple dinner with you, to have a simple walk with you or to catch our much love movie outings.
That my faith in you still remain strong or even stronger than before, and that we can work towards the future that we always yearn for.
That my love for you, still stand strong thru the passing of time.

I am really looking forward to 2 years later, you know what i mean. =) You darling, I love you.

I will not walk infront of you to lead you. I will not walk behind you to push you. I will walk beside you and we will overcome all obstacles together, side by side.

With Love,
Irfan

After

2010-03-31T20:22:00.000+08:00

4 days of not seeing you, i finally get to fetch you home later from your day out.

I don't want to sleep

2010-03-29T21:00:00.001+08:00

With endless nightmares...

The ugly side of riding

2010-03-28T23:10:00.002+08:00

Met with an accident two days back while on the way to work.. Damn it. It hurts like a bitch. Recovery seems so slow.. Sigh.

I have difficulties in walking, standing and even sitting.. At times the pain will shoot randomly. I swear its a minimum of 8/10 pain score.

I want my missy to take care of me... Pain is more bearable that way...

4 candles

2010-03-21T20:11:00.002+08:00

It's been 1 year 2 months and 9 days since i ask her to be my girlfriend.. 433 days thats it.. 10,392 hours, 623,520 minutes, 37,411,200 seconds and still counting..

And there really have never been a time where i doubted her in any single way..

I am looking forward to having many more years, many more days, many more hours, minutes and seconds with you my dear...

As we're both now transiting into a working world, i want to renew my promise to you..

I love you...

Dear Diary

2010-03-18T12:36:00.001+08:00

My house lately... it seems...

Dead.

Dear Diary

2010-03-10T02:37:00.002+08:00

It is certainly not easy to fight the temptation to smoke..
But i managed to pull thru today...

This year so far is kind of special because i finally have 3 items which i certainly really really want to have
1. A blackberry Bold 2 phone
2. A Canon DSLR
3. A car

I do not know if i can have 'em all by this year as it is all damn pricey.

Sigh...

Each time when i say i love you,

I do not only speak with my mouth,

The words comes from the heart and soul..

checking in!

2010-02-23T01:56:00.003+08:00

hello hello hello! been awhile since i've dropped a post here. haha, and Irfan is a procrastinator = no updates. HAHAHAHA! ohwells, guess what's up recently?

my damn cool hair!

hahaha, ok it's just bangs, i've got that done before last time and it looks not bad, but this time round, no such luck. ): but it's not THAT bad la. just not as nice as last time. hahaha. i'm like waiting for it to grow abit longer, hopefully will look less weird. heh.

and know what? PRCP's ending soon! we're gonna be working adults in like less than 2month's time! on one hand, i can't wait to do that, but on the other hand, i want to enjoy for a longer period of time first. oh god, so confused!

ok, that's all for now, i need to turn in soon! still got work tmr. bye all!

On this Valentine's Day,

2010-02-14T02:54:00.003+08:00

Dear, on this special day, i wish to pour out my my heartfelt emotions to you.

The very first time when i know you, i know you're special. You may not have a perfect family, but you're full of vibrant joy, always wearing that smile even in the darkest of time. Granted that you may miss out on what many may experience, i sometimes do wish that i could do something to emulate what others feel, what others have experience.

As we walked on in our relationship, i do feel injustice. I feel that god is really not fair sometimes, to have to put you thru to too many things that a growing up person should go thru. Life can be so cruel that it have caused many to give up. But always remember my dear, the 2nd most beautiful thing on earth, Diamonds, have to be polished hard till it shines. And oh boy you're such a joy to watch.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" You said.

I really can't help but to sometimes be lost in the world of you and me when you're sitting infront of me. When i look at you, i always thought about the hardship, the uncertainties that you have to go thru, but look at you. How you can never fail to smile despite all these looming behind. How you can still prance around happily and even able to bring out the best of me despite all that you have to go thru. You should know that I truly admire you.

Behind all these facades, i know there lies a certain sadness, a certain yearning that you shelter. That feeling i know can never be conquered so easily. But my love, despite whatever or however things are or will be, i want to let you know that i am always with you.

I will not walk in front of you nor behind you, i will walk beside you, be there for you and do all i can to assist you thru. I will not cry when you cry nor laugh when you cry, i will be there beside you, to let you pour everything that you have and let you cry your eyes out.

We both may not have the most perfect family that we yearn for, but with good faith and strong love, in time to come, we can set up a family that we can most certainly be proud of, a place, a sanctuary that we can really call home.

I may not be the best of the men out there, but the moment we held hands, i know that i will be your lover, i will be your partner, i will be your family, i will be your friend.

On this special day my love, I want to immortalise this and let the whole world knows that i truly love you.

You my dear, you're the number 1 most beautiful thing on earth. Happy Valentine's Day to you..

As we grow older together,

As we continue to change with age,

There is one thing that will never change. . .

I will always keep falling in love with you.

My Secret Place

2010-02-13T07:43:00.006+08:00

My PRCP is drawing to a close, on the negative side of the high note. But oh well.. I'm letting you all in to my secret place.. The place where each day when i'm working, for that one hour of break, i can stop being a nurse for that moment, stop being a preceptee, being what people expect me to be. A place where i can just lie back on my Putput, stare in the open space, look at the occasional butterflies and bees, enjoying the breeze and the sound of motorcars zooming pass over at the highway..

Found this place as i was riding around..

Just looking at the massive house gives me some inspiration to work harder.

The Dead end, where i can look at cars zooming pass. =)

My tranquility. Imagine wind blowing, leave rustling...

Looks like as long as i'm in CDC or TTSH, this will be the place where i will go to each time during my break. Where i can recharge myself.. My Secret Place. =)

Anyways, here's a picture that i captured with my high tech camera mounted on Putput.

Batman's new ride.

2010-02-09T19:57:00.006+08:00

A very fierce bike. Always go Chau Chee *beep*

My attempt at Chupa Chups kungfu.

Alicia's attempt at lollipop Opera dance.

Tell me. I look psychotic right?

This picture is posted so that Alicia won't slaughter me for posting all the unglam photos.

Makeover

2010-02-09T19:40:00.001+08:00

Changed the outlook of the page..
Still not complete yet.
Wait till i've the mood to do so.
Meanwhile, thats it.
Bye.

Under the weather

2010-02-01T16:58:00.002+08:00

Thousand dagger stabs. I am but not a good man.

2010-01-26T00:13:00.003+08:00

hi all, as some of you have already known, i have a blog of my own now. this site will still be in use most definitely. (:
i think i still like the idea of having my own space. heehee!

and my new site will be,
http://aliciachua.bogspot.com/

(:
with love,
alicia

Kate Spade??

2010-01-22T18:57:00.008+08:00

omg. why do i have to stumble upon this bag? it's so nice sweet and feminine and FREAKING EXPENSIVE!! -.-

ok, i know it's from kate spade so it's priced with a big tag, but a tag, SO BIG! i don't even dare to dream of buying it! wtf!

but it's like really nice. i don't know if others find this bag nice too, but personally, to me, it's damn kawaii and big enough and colour nicely matched and it's so like something i will fall in love with. HAHAHAHA!
it just really attracts me....

omg, i should stop looking at the pic....

here here!!

with love,
alicia

First ever night shift...

2010-01-21T15:33:00.004+08:00

ok, i'm getting my first night shift today. i hope i don't fall asleep!! cereal for beak time, heh! it's banana nut crunch~!! YUMYUMSSS! *nomnomnom*

with HL milk to go with, ultimate heaven.... hahahah. oh man, i'm kind of excited and worried both at the same time! heeheehee! ok. what a random and short post. bye all!!

with love,
alicia

nice pic to share!

2010-01-17T14:56:00.003+08:00

i wish i have tummy small like hers. not entirely flat, but good enough for me.

with love
alicia

new year's resolution

2010-01-02T01:28:00.002+08:00

ok, this is going to be a boring post i guess. haha. but i'm still going to post it for my own sake. hahaha. wellwell, lets see what are my resolutions this year.

be more frugal, spend lesser, save more.
eat more healthily.
be more patient to people around me and at work.
to be more tolerant to whatever that comes in my way (in life, in work)
try to catch up more with my friends.

uhmmm, i don't know what else already! hahaha! well, having a few is better than none right! :D

work today is pretty slowgoing and slack. perhaps because it's NewYear's day? even docs are more relax today. haha!

but bad thing that happened today is that, flu bug has gotten to me! ): i kept sneezing today, and the mucus kept on flowing down... this is definitely not the best time to be falling sick! i still have 7 more days of work before my next off day, and i really do not wish to get mc... ):

hope i get well soon!! heehee. i'm going to try and go to sleep soon. with this bug in me, i'll need more rest!

with love,
alicia

2009

2010-01-01T19:43:00.002+08:00

Ahh... i know i know.. its one more of those "Oh! Goodbye 2009! Hello 2010!" post.. but yeah, thats what it's really all about right? 2009 is now officially history and 2010 is the current and the mystery!

2009 have certainly been a wonderful and fruitful year despite it's meandering turns that felt more like a rollercoaster ride not only for me, but also for my love ones as well..

We can't help but to reflect back on the thing that have happened in 2009... Issues like divorce in my family, monetary issues, bike stuffs, studies, PRCPs and many many more! Then, there were periods where it felt throughly impossible to go thru, but with the constant support and immense understanding from love, we manage to not only go thru them, but go thru and tackle them well and emerged even stronger than before. =)

But of course the year is not only about problems and worries.. ( Who don't have any problems and worries right?) There are many milestones that we aimed and achieved too!

We studied hard (and smart), passed our exams, gotten the 'keyboardy' phone that love always wanted, shoppings, movies, finding new eating places, enjoying each other's company, getting our first polaroid, love's first surgery (not that we wanted it, but it was a significant event!) countless secret stuffs that we won't say =D and many many more!

I can say that 2009 although was a tough year, it was a year which i throughly enjoyed. Really, now i understand that with even when the going gets tough, with the support and presence of your love ones, nothing is really impossible.. I know i know.. it's all oh wordy and no pictures... but let me end this post with a story from Japan.. Maybe it'll teach all of us a lesson or two.. =) With that i wish you all friends, a very happy and healthy 2010. =D

In order to renovate the house, someone in Japan tears open the wall.
Japanese houses normally have a hollow space between the wooden walls.
When tearing down the walls, he found that there was a lizard stuck there because a nail from outside hammered into one of its feet.
He sees this, feels pity, and at the same time curious,
as when he checked the nail, it was nailed 10 years ago when the house was first built.

What happened? The lizard has survived in such position for 10 years!
In a dark wall partition for 10 years without moving, it is impossible and mind boggling.
Then he wondered how this lizard survived for 10 years without moving a single step--since its foot was nailed!
So he stopped his work and observed the lizard, what it has been doing, and what and how it has been eating.
Later, not knowing from where it came, appears another lizard, with food in its mouth.

Ahh! He was stunned and touched deeply. For the lizard that was stuck by nail, another lizard has been feeding it for the past 10 years...
Such love, such a beautiful love! Such love happened even with this tiny creature ...
What can love do? It can do wonders! Love can do miracles!
Imagine? it has been doing that untiringly for 10 long years, without giving up hope on its partner.
Imagine what a small creature can do that a creature blessed with a brilliant mind can't.

With Love,
Irfan

Ps: Baby, i love you more and more each day still... I am blessed to have you. =)

A Brand New Year

2010-01-01T02:59:00.002+08:00

it's 2010, and i stained 2 of my uniform in pink. great or what? lols. in a blink of an eye, prcp have been ongoing for 1month already. just 2 more months to go, and i'm a full fledged nurse already. omg. hahaha.
many things gonna happen, many uncertainties of the future. sigh.. just hope everything can turn out smoothly. hope everything will be fine...

changes in life, changechangechange. makes it so hard to endure. stress is inevitable. but with that being said, just how much stress can one take? how much is too much? how far to reach the limit?

hmmm, anyways, it's a new year, i should not be brooding about such stuff.

in this new year, i hope everything can be more smoothsailing. hope things at my side get better, hope things at baby's home get better too.
who wouldn't want life to be nice and simple?
hahaha

happy 2010 everyone!
(:

with love,
alicia

Happy New Year

2009-12-31T16:26:00.003+08:00

My long overdue blog post later tonight.. =)

With Love,
Irfan

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2009-12-30T04:24:00.003+08:00

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2009-12-13T23:52:00.009+08:00

okk, major MIA from me. hahaha! now, i try to make major update okays. hahaha!

so basically, after my last posted entry, i had a short trip to bangkok with godfather, aunt, and two of his nieces, namely Mabel and Vernice. haha.

well, here you go, a pic of them. sorry for the bad quality as i didn't bring my camera along!ok, act shy so i get the ball rolling!and so, here we go~!!and this is us three.and of course me camwhore. LOL and so, it was a 4day3night trip, filled with praying and eating yummy food plus loads of shopping. i didn't get that many things, but still better than none la uh! alot of this are like really cheap there!!

well, next up, when i returned back to singapore, i had a brief meet-up with SiJie, and we chat -ed into the night. hahaha, it was indeed great catching up!!
after which days passed by, daily routine, and oh! me, grace, kenneth and boyfriend went on an educational trip to science centre!! it was really interesting and fun! it's my second time there in this year already, and i'm still enjoying it!! :D

ohoh! on a random note, me and boyfriend together bought a polaroid camera! ultra in love with in now!! :D the pictures are ohsogorgeous~!! heeheehee!
like for example,
also, we attended joy's wedding some time in nov as well, pics aren't with me, so yeah.. science centre pics are not with me yet too, so yeah.. HAHA!

what i have with me, are pics of today's outing with boyfriend. we kick start our week with some good food and it's gonna be a long week, and we are in like different shifts, or different off days. hahaha. and also because we just love to eat. LOL! picture tells. (:

could you guess where??
this is a MUST HAVE! ULTRA GOOOOOOD~!
it's not tea okayy. soup. very yummy soup. :Dthis also must have, yummyyummy crab even better to have your boyfriend peel it for you! :D
and see him enjoying it too! hahaha!
alright, that's all i have for now! heehee. shall end with a picture of me! hahaha! such a vain pot!! :X

oh yes, i permed my hair. yes i did. i didn't mention before? HAHAHA!

with love,
a li cia

2009-12-09T11:40:00.001+08:00

Horrible yesterday, today will be worst.

Baby,

2009-12-04T14:16:00.000+08:00

What will i do without you?

I love you

With Love,
Irfan

Hamster rings

2009-11-26T23:43:00.006+08:00

It feels weird not to hear that often from you, feels funny not to hear your sweet melodious voice, it sure is very cold, because i'm missing the warmth of your body and not being able to smell your sweet scent, makes me go crazy. Faster come back k baby... It's horribly mundane and boring here without you.

So we got ourselves a new set of ring to mark our anniversary and a set of chain as well so that during work, we can hang our rings there. In a weeks time, we will be embarking on our new journey together, both having our own path of career to fulfil. And my ultimate goal is still the same, to be able to open our own business and we'll be our own boss. =) And of course, to set up a nice and comfortable household for us to live in.

Moving on, there is a new addition to my hamster family, taken from baby's pack of 5. Introducing, XiaoBai!

Yum yum yum.... *burp* I enjoy eating while sitting on the cooling plate. Water please!

*Sob Sob* Where is my Mummy! I want my Mummy! =`(

*Pout* I don't want to eat unless Mummy come and sayang me. Hrmp!

I shall wait for Mummy. Meanwhile i shall take a much needed nap. Dreaming of you..

Yah... Hamster have feelings too you know.. XiaoBai now joins XiaoHei and BearBear. He will be the smallest amongst the two giant Syrian breed. The smallest, the fastest & probably the cutest? Heh.

I was an idiot the other day, woked up in the early morning, and i don't know what got into me. I decided to gear up and run to Punggol End. While i was doing my warm up and stretching routine outside my apartment, my mind was all damn focused on reaching Punggol End at a stipulated timing. And since its that early ( 5+ am ) i decided not to bring my phone as nobody will call me at that hour, and of course to travel light, i did not bring any money nor wallet with me.

I run and run and run and i finally reached my destination. Feeling all victorious and satisfied, i lay down on the floor, gasping for air and at the same time looking at the sky catching a glimpse of the sun rays breaking into the dawn. I gave my all during that run, and my legs was all wobbly and jelly like already when i suddenly realise, "Oh fuck my life. I still have to get home." It is about a 10km walk? With 4 uphills and uneven terrain.

While walking back, i swore what and idiot i was, forgetting about the fact that i have to return back home after my run. Really.. FML. Heh..

PS: I love you. Miss you.

With Love,
Irfan

footsteps

2009-11-22T02:01:00.002+08:00

of people everywhere, etched in my heart. late into the night, the mind wanders. flahbacks, memories, funny moments, sad days and rush and fill in. the mind works wonders. so much in my life, yet i can still recall them all.

from as young as 7 years old? till now. friends, family, close ones, dear ones. i think about you all, from time to time. thanks for all the pretty and even sometimes sad memories that you people give me. because i smile when i think of them.
(:

and i hope that, when you all if ever think of me, would have the smiling face too. haha. hmmm, emo much? nah.. thoughtful nights. lol.

on another note, many things have happened, especially on love's family side. sigh.. wish i could do something for you baby. but, i really have no say nor effect over anything at all. i wish i could take the pain and tiredness away. off you, off your brother. but what can i do??

ohwells, in any case, i'm heading to bankok coming tuesday. you all do miss me yea? hahaha. i so thick skin. =x

oh yea, i need to start exercising man!! fatfatfatporkkk! blahh!
iloveyoubaby!

with love,
alicia

Today

2009-11-17T17:31:00.004+08:00

Phone lines, Broadband... all cancelled.

I wasn't informed of the decision to cancel these two necessities at home. Took a trip down to singtel to reapply a residential line and a broadband. This process of divorce between my parents really getting very messy. So messy that it is wearing me out. Although i can choose not to think about it, it still does affect me in a way or another.

Back to the broadband issue, i'm left with 7 days till this broadband line will be cut. And that effectively will cut me out from my usual daily habit of using the computer when i reach home, when i wake up. And to make matters worst, baby won't be with me cos she'll be overseas. The installation team will only be able to install my new broadband on December 1st. Sucks.

Next issue i have to settle is my brother's handphone line. His line too will be cut. So we got to reapply another line for him so that he can stay connected.

Come to think of it, all these are just small small stuff.. But all these small and trivial stuffs that keeps on coming and coming, it is sure much more unbearable than a big bomb to the face.

I don't know what to say about them anymore. Now on one side, relatives are blaming me for their divorce. They said as the eldest son, i could have done something to prevent the divorce. And on the other side, i have to play my role as the eldest son, to show support to my parents.

At times i do feel lost. At time i just don't want to give a fuck about whats going on, but i can't. If i were not to care, things will still be hard for me and my brother.

The next worry will be housing. Selling of this house is inevitable. When this house is sold, where do we live? Where can we seek shelter at? Where can we have a place that we can call home? I don't know. The future is so uncertain. I really won't be suprise should tomorrow someone were to tell me that i have to move out in a given time. I won't be suprise should tomorrow the electricity be cut. I am tired. Very tired. Very drained out.

So right now, i am fighting for our rights and our necessities. Thats the least i can do.

And baby, its a blessing to have you. To be my listening ear, to hear my endless complains and rants, and still able to give me your honest opinions on the situation. I appreciate that. I love you.

Thank you for being there for me.

With Love,
Irfan

2009-11-11T14:28:00.001+08:00

When i was a child, i spoke as a child,
I understood as a child, i thought like a child.
But when i became a man,
I push all childish things away.

2009-11-11T05:50:00.001+08:00

I don't feel appreciated at all. Really.

Mine Field

2009-11-10T05:48:00.002+08:00

Whats wrong with me choosing not to take any sides? And even with this choice, i'm accused of conspiring and what not.

Excellent.

OMG!

2009-11-03T00:09:00.000+08:00

One more week.

2009-10-31T02:34:00.003+08:00

And i have got to say bid adieu to you. I'm going to stop riding for now.

With Love,
Irfan

year end already??!!

2009-10-31T00:30:00.002+08:00

hey!! happy halloween's! LOL.

it's been like really long since i've blogged! like since july??!! OMG!! lol. what a bag of lazy bones!! =x you know, TIME FLIES!!

we're like almost done with our diploma already!! WTF!! scary!! it's been really busy and all with our attachments and such... and i just never seem to see for myself how the days just creep pass me like that!

it's was like just yesterday when it was halloween day last year. funnily, i had lunch with grace'y on halloween's! hahaha. and i remember that we ordered too much food and can't finish because we were such gluttons, can't resist this and that and this and that.

hmmmm, can't wait to finish my PRCP man... start work officially, and my hard cold cash!! LOL. okk, a bit bit of pics to be uploaded okays~!!

Shop de shop

2009-10-29T17:59:00.004+08:00

It was suppose to be a movie night, but we went to Plaza Singapura after meeting baby's father to eat Cartel instead.

And before Cartel, we saw a discount offer from Aldo, 70% off! O_o"
Wanted to buy the sneakers, but no size... Baby was interested in the heels, but no size too... and so we looked around and saw this watch,

Yeap. A blue glass face second hand watch. We bought it for $6500. =D
Of course with a decimal point after the 5 la....

Oh ya, appetizer was Fried mars balls and classic mashed potato hotdog from Chippys. Sadly Cartel was a failure but oh well.

Can't wait for Monday to come. We'll be receiving our newly rose gold and silver ring with laser engravings. =D

Sister's keeper tonight! Updates soon.

With Love,
Irfan

New Song

2009-10-28T05:21:00.003+08:00

Hey all... We're now on our final phase of attachment before we go for our PRCP. After PRCP, we'll be full fledge staff nurses.

Sad thing is, we're both missing out alot on our dance lessons. All the shifts and the clash of timing really make us unable to attend the lessons. Even if we're free to go for the lessons, we're most probably too tired to go. Its really mentally, physically and possibly emotionally tiring.

Right now, we're opening up a donation fund, "A car for Alicia&Irfan fund". You can donate any amount towards our finances for a car. =D

With love,
Irfan

For you

2009-10-22T04:54:00.002+08:00

I'm selling my bike. Let's go for our last spin on the bike k.

I love you.

With Love,
Irfan

2009-10-15T02:07:00.000+08:00

Wise men say only fools rush in
But I cant help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
Would it be a sin
If I cant help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I cant help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I cant help falling in love with you.

With Love,
Irfan

If

2009-09-30T01:25:00.002+08:00

The week is still young and i'm already hating it.
Now i am sitting infront of my comp, with nothing to do, but my mind full of thoughts and wonders.

At this point of time really, i resent life.
If it is not for u, i would have gave up.. I'm sick and tired of being the middle person having ask to find this out, find that out, sourcing for a home, looking at HDB terms and conditions, worrying about money and whatever fuck shit.

I'm sick of tired with you two telling me that you all don't need to worry about me, because i'm all grown up and shit. You know what? FUCK you. I'm still a human. I have emotions too.. i have feelings.. I need care, i need support.

And all that you two can say is, i don't worry about you.

And all that you two can think of is winning this private battle.

You two expected me to fulfil all your wishes, complete all the jobs that you two did not manage to do. You two expected me to care for people, to look after people that you want me to look after.

Then who will look after for me? Who will look after my heart's feeling? Who will care about how i feel? Who will be there to pamper me?

I may appear strong and strong willed.

Sad to say,
I'm just a man. I'm still a human. Just in case you two forgot.

You two, my dear parents.

OMG!

2009-09-17T11:51:00.002+08:00

Hahahaha.. Have been a bloody long hiatus we must say.. This place is nearly filled with cobwebs and dust as thick as that neosoft butter, but we're not dead, don't worry! =D

Exam period totally killed both of us, we resurrected specially to take the last paper to get killed again by the 'I think i will fail this paper' feeling. But yeah, somehow, we resurrected ourselves again!

Dance was horrible with my this stupid right knee.. I somehow twisted it at an awkward angle and it hurts like a cow farting directly into your nasal choncae, you know, possibly that kind of burning feeling you get when all that methane prrrfffftt thru your nasal canal. O.o

Ah damn, i can't wait for the IT show pay. Oh, i didn't mention IT show right? The comex IT show was a feet killer! We stood thru-out the show, baby selling Sennheisser while me doing Sony, didn't get to do Sennheisser this time round, but Sony is just as fine. And of course, our traditional choco frappe and makan sutra never fails to perk up my lousy sales day.

And i hope love, you enjoyed the feet massage.. =)

Friends, sorry for our disappearance act. We were so into Grey's anatomy until we're now in this withdrawal sydrome. We can't seem to find season 5!! and they are already launching season 6!!

Love will update pictures up soon. Mine, is just some wordy wordy post.. Muaahhahaha...

Baby, I love you. Really really do. =D

With Love,
Irfan

Spotted on Stomp

2009-08-05T19:12:00.002+08:00

This is one power coffeeshop in Johor... Be a bad ass and you'll end up paying 10RM bucks more. Cool shit!

Dear

2009-07-26T23:29:00.001+08:00

The doctor said that you can can be discharged tomorrow. Although it's KIV, but still the prospect of you being able to go home tomorrow, i'm very happy. =)

You're fast asleep now, and it's time for me to get some sleep too.. Baby, don't you dare say that i am bored when i am accompanying you in the hospital. How can i be bored when you're around me?

You know bee, when you're in the Operating theatre, the OT door opened 36 times and many more until i lost count. Each time the door opened, i will stand up and rush towards the door to see whether it's you that's being wheeled out. After much waiting, you were finally wheeled out and the first thing that you said, "Baby.. Pain..."

At that point of time i felt hopeless not knowing what to do to relieve you from the pain that you're experiencing. Of course there's nothing that i can do, but all the more i feel angry at myself for not being able to minimize the pain that you're feeling. I hate feeling helpless.

Thinking back, you must have been very very strong. You know, being able to go for dance training with me despite the pain you're feeling, go to Mustafa to shop, went thru a performance and still looking all damn good despite that appendix inside you being inflammed.

I don't like the new hospital policy of not allowing people to stay over with the patients. Sucks. At least if i'm there, i can ease the work load of the nurses right? Not that i am troubling them what. Stupid hospital policy. *bish the hospital*

Sigh, i miss you you know. Each time i travel thru and fro from the hospital to home, home to the hospital, i feel empty. Because you're not travelling with me, because i can't see your smile, because i don't feel your body warmth cuddling me. You're there lying on the hospital bed, feeling the pain and receiving countless of jab and IV treatment.

When you discharge, there will be plenty of things that we can do, that you can look forward too. We shall go eat good food, we shall go watch all the movies that we missed, we shall go and lie down together doing nothing and just let the time fly by. And when you're fully recovered, we shall go back to dance again together and we can then work towards many many more things that we have yet to accomplish.

I'm sorry to all the friends that wish to visit my love but rejected by me. I'm really really sorry. The current hospital policy only allows a total of 8 people that can visit, and i have to reserve some slots for your grandma and uncle should they want to come over. I really thank you for your concern. Alicia's doing well now and i'll make sure she'll be back in the best zest of health in no time.

And to those that managed to come over, sorry for having to make you guys to wait downstairs while the other visitors are still upstairs. Having to make you guys go to kopitiam first and run errands for me. i really thank you. =)

And to you my love, bear in mind. I love you. I love you more than words. I love you, with or without your appendix. *hug*

With Love,
Irfan

OT

2009-07-24T22:44:00.002+08:00

Love just got wheeled into the Operating Theatre. Going to go thru appendectomy. Yup. Granted that it is a simple procedure, but i am still worried sick.

Am sitting in the surgery waiting room and this feeling sucks. Sucks to the core really. The cold, the worrying.. Faster come out k love. Then when you can eat le, just tell me what you want. I'll go get it for you.

You must be craving for some nice nice food. We will go out for really damn nice food when you recover i promise.

I shall take some rest now. You should be out around 3? I'm looking forward to 3 then. I miss you bee.. I love you.

*pray*

With Love,
Irfan

Baby..

2009-07-24T02:43:00.006+08:00

Its funny how things happen so fast.

I never really ask for much.. but now i'm losing more than i can grasp. Things aren't really that good at the moment.

And baby, you know it pains me to see you lying on the hospital bed? True, granted that you say that your condition is not that bad.. but the thing is, i am freaking upset that i cannot be there with you 24/7! Stupid hospital policies about no staying over becos of H1N1, stupid strict visiting hours. Damn the freaking swine flu.

The hardest thing that i did today is to leave your bedside when you fall asleep. Stupid nurse bugging me to go home. I freaking hate it. All i want to do is to hug you and take your pain away. And god if you see this, let me take the pain for her please..

I am willing to take the pain many times over. As long as my baby is safe and healthy, anything is worth it.

Baby.. get well soon... I will look after you. I will nurse you back to health. I will pamper you like always, like how you want me to.

I need you. Especially in times like this. I miss your presence. I miss your smell. I miss your smile.. I miss you being around me.

You and my brother is all that i got now..

I love you my love.. More than you know. More than you can imagine.

With Love,
Irfan

Two

2009-07-22T02:22:00.000+08:00

Two grown up man, two brothers crying in the room.

HUGS...

2009-07-22T02:06:00.004+08:00

big hugs to my love and dear brother..
*hughug*

there's nothing i can say to make things better, i don't know what i can do to help, but in any case, my ears are always here for you two(yes, not only my cowmoomoo but both of you).

be strong,
life isn't always a bed of roses.

with love,
alicia

Whatever

2009-07-18T07:12:00.003+08:00

Really been a while since i blogged a proper entry... i'm seriously feeling outdated and under the trend.

Tsk.

Gah! i'll just post up pictures long overdue in the next post.

I love you

2009-07-15T06:32:00.001+08:00

More than you know, more than you can imagine.
=)

2009-07-09T20:50:00.000+08:00

=D
teeheehee~!!

with love,
alicia

2009-07-09T08:51:00.002+08:00

oh man.. have been super busy ever since school reopened. school, projects, dance, driving blahblahblah. why can't there be 48hours a day? lol. not even enough time for sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. ):

my TP today, hope i'll pass man! haha.

happy birthday my boy

2009-07-04T02:50:00.020+08:00

it was baby's birthday yesterday, 3rd July. i spent both thursday and friday with him. (: started the day wanting to go science centre for the da vinci exhibition, but end up never. haha. in the end, we just went to watch movie, Ice Age3 in 3D. not bad, quite funny. and went to drink abit too plus gaming too. lol.

haiya, just let the pics do the talking ok? hahaha. and pics for science centre would be up too. we went on, 25th June2009.
(:

suprise small little cake for the birthday boy.

can you see that it's a smiley face? for this 24 year old man, to smile more this coming year. (:
ok, i look super ugly here, but heck la. this is the only pic of us together with the cake. cos scared the wax destroy the cake. hahaha.
bithday boy 'cuts' the tiny cake.
suprisingly, the picture didn't come out ugly! hahaha.lol.

picture badly taken in the cinema before show start as phototaking are NOT ALLOWED!! ):
after movie, we're off to public house for some drinks. and i look horredous here. super round face. FAT!cam-whoring before our drinks come. luckily we got there in time for the last order. as it was thursday, they actually close at an early time of 12mn. zzz. weekends would be till 3am. but sadly kitchen was closed already by the time we're there, so no sotong ball for me. ):

me with my Mojito. well, here one not to my liking. the one at Ink Club Bar was way nicer in my opinion. heh.
baby and his signature BIG hoegarden.
ok, i'm skeptical about beers. they're not that great, don't know why peopl like it so much..
and my judgement is that, beer all taste about the same, and all not nice in my opinion! =x
though the Mojito here not that nice, but still nicer than your beer!! =P
and he likes his hoegarden. haha.
next up was Jager-Bomb. nice and sweet, i like! hahha. his hoegarden behind wanting to be in the pic. LOL
'check youself out mirror' at the pub. cute huh! imagine you're drunk and all, look into the mirror, and you start laughing at your own reflection. LOL.
after lights on, we went off, to cam-whore, yet again. =x
he doubted i could capture both of us and the ballball. proved wrong! =p don't doubt a girl's camwhoring skills! and lesson learnt? don't doubt when the picture taking is IN PROGRESS! gives you funny mouth~ =p
see, be good, trust my skills and pics comes out nicely. no funny mouth. heh.shorts legs!

long legs!
(:
when all ideas run out, jump shots are next! =D
1st attempt.
2nd attempt.
and i try.....
and it was diastrous.
lol.
think i do better at posing for still photos. HAHASCIENCE CENTRE DAY!!

on the way there, in bus.
(:

and here we are, at the entrance of science centre, give it a few poses!
off to Mac to adjust abit here and there.
found this 'collection' of happy meal toys there! so cool la!concentrating hard.

fancy a platter of fruits and head?
this Nathan's potrait can move! i'm serious!! damn cool!
hey! wait for me!!
nano tech......
yummy crispy is our snack of the day!
larger than life kaleidoscope...
with us in it.
(:
and my weight in moon!!
at the omni theatre waiting for show to start, waiting is boring, and so, comes endless CAMWHORE again. yes i know, again. got sweet, cute, act cute, lame, revolting ugly, cool, etc..

and ok, that marks the end of my photo loaded post with loads of cam-whoring photos! hahaha. just hope that cowmoomoo enjoyed himself for his birthday this year. (: it was really a simple one, but hope you liked it. and the present as well.
lovelove.

with love,
alicia

2009-06-30T00:13:00.006+08:00

The pain i've caused you,
I know that i can never erase them away.

2009-06-25T01:59:00.002+08:00

hi all, a little small advertisement here! hahaha. my friend's blogshop is having a 4 in 1 apparel pre-order. it includes clothes from Japan, Korea, Taiwan and also Hong Kong. she's got dresses, blouses, skirts, jeans, and even shorts!

so do go take a look as the clothes are priced between $12.90-$25.90. reasonable yea? give it a peek, who knows, something might just attract you there!

and friends who know me personally and are interested to get the clothes, you've got my msn, email, number, etc, text me before you place your order. i'll give you a small help in getting a 10% discount.

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with love,
alicia

Not random

2009-06-20T22:06:00.001+08:00

I love you

I'm a star with no light

A day with no night

If i don't have you.

With Love,
Irfan

Lost&Found photos

2009-06-16T18:19:00.002+08:00

here are certain photos taken along the way, sometimes missed out. i seem to have found them in the system. hahaha. some are ugly, but nevertheless precious. (:

love you moomoo. heehee.

with love,
alicia

2009-06-16T02:14:00.002+08:00

MooMoo and me...
(:

with love,
alicia

What's becoming to the world?

2009-06-12T02:25:00.003+08:00

Mr Thomas Beatie was born as Tracy Something something.. She, no he, She he, went thru a transgender change, married a woman and wa lah, became a preggy.. Apparently, Mr Beatie chose to keep herhim female reproductive organ. Mrs Beatie however went thru a hysterectomy ( removal of the uterus ).

After the Beatie's decided to have a child of their own, Mr Beatie got a sperm donor from a source online and went ahead with the gravida. Tsk. This is highly disturbing you know.

He's She's not just gave birth once, he she did it again just recently, successfully delivering their second baby boy.

I'm officially speechless.

With Love,
Irfan

Latin

2009-06-05T21:29:00.004+08:00

Sleepy.. Hahahahaha..

Took my ippt on Wednesday, i fell at my shuttle run station, the rest i got the full 5 points. Sigh..

Anyways, i'm enjoying dance alot.. and i really must must thank the BEM committee for being very accomodating to this stupid monkey who have two left feet.

And, Me and love was thinking of adopting two winterwhite hamsters from this particular forumer.. But we ended up adopting all of his 5 hamsters.. And since we're into latin dance, we're naming them according to the 5 dancesport names... 4 girls 1 boy, so they will be Chacha, Rhumba, Samba, Jive (Jivey) & Paso Doble (Paso)..

Paso will be the boy, and Jivey will be the boy/girl cos we have yet to be really able to identify his/her sex yet. Chacha, rhumba and samba will be the 3 confirmed little girls. They are so freaking cute can?

Love will load up the pictures soon.. =P Camera with you right love? Not that i am taichi-ing the job to you leh... =(

She sleeping soo soundly now on my bed now.. I want to fall asleep tooo...*yawwn* ZZzzzzzZzzzz

With Love,
Irfan

2009-06-03T02:04:00.005+08:00

hello all. long time no post huh! hahaha. busy busy busy. school, project, hamster, driving, dancing, club stuff. oh man~ i'm out of breath. i need rest!

but damn! NAPFA is at week 8! and we were only informed by our dear mentor on week 7... how to train????? no timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww???

my running chui liao lor. i so long never train properly liao. sigh..... i want to get gold de leh. then i will have god for every year that i take my stupid napfa. butbutbut! this time round like not enought time. sian to the max mannnnnnn...

ok. some pics to bring you along this boring post k. hee.

some baobao thingy we got from tamp1. nicenice! =D

see! i so innovative! hahaha. cute neh?!!
(((:
dearie, thanks so much for your help in clearing up the club room. (: love you. <3
the funny ang mo kio mascot at the ang mo kio hub. lol.okok, very late liao. i want to hit the sack le. tomorrow lesson's at freaking 8am!! OMGGGGG.

with love,
alicia

2009-05-30T02:54:00.001+08:00

You can count on me, till the end of time.

With Love,
Irfan

And i wonder...

2009-05-29T13:12:00.001+08:00

I've fallen so hard, so fast this time.
What did i say, what did you do?
How did i fall in love with you....

With Love,
Irfan

2009-05-29T03:45:00.004+08:00

I can't sleep. With so many things in my mind right now. =(

And Xiaohei escaped from his tank twice already. Found him on both occasion thank god. But he is missing again for the third time.

=(

Any brain damage is irreversible. Sigh.

With Love,
Irfan

It hurts

2009-05-27T02:16:00.003+08:00

When you have to restrain your own grandmother on the hospital bed, leaving her alone at night, asking her to do pass urine and pass motion in the hospital diapers..

I look at my hand and i curse myself.

With Love,
Irfan

Hands clasped.

2009-05-25T02:58:00.005+08:00

Me and love finally managed to strike off one item off love's wishlist. Yup yup yuppppp... She gotten her much long awaited Agnes B wallet~ A signature design in red. We freaking bought the last one in Singapore ; possibly the last one in Asia too!

Attended the saturday dance class with Love.. Really appreciate the fact that the committee of La Ballroom En Masse is really very accomodating.. and that really helps because i am really a noob of all noobs in dancing. You should see how other's dance and their hips look like a sensational jiggle jiggle while the best i could do is to make mine look like an agar agar.. SAD!

My ah ma had a fall.. A pretty bad one indeed... brought her to TTSH, after which she was discharged 2 days later.. And when back home, she fell again, this time hitting her head on the table. MRI scan showed that she have an internal haemorrage on her right brain.

The bleeding is pretty severe in a sense that it's causing the compression of her right 3rd ventricle space and it's evident that she is now indeed suffering from left side weakness. Sigh.. Not only that she is badly demented, she have to suffer this kind of mishaps too.. =(

I want her to have a speedy recovery. I am willing to absorb the pain she's feeling now. I am most willing, if that takes away the pain she is facing right now.

With Love,
Irfan

Macdonald's shoe

2009-05-21T01:56:00.004+08:00

Yes, i officially took my first dance lesson with La Ballroom En Masse on Monday. Learnt Salsa, and i must say i am damn good at it!!

No wait.. I'm not done yet..

I can even do it better than the rest!

Sadly, i wish i can say like that.. sigh.. Basically i look like a undersized grizzly bear stepping on hot charcoal.. At times during the salsa class, i am thinking whether i am dancing salsa or tap dancing... Greaaat..

I really need to catch up with the rest.. I'm like two to three lessons behind...

RRRRrrrraapppatipitu.....RRRrrrraaapppattippittta!

With Love,
Irfan

Lately

2009-05-14T20:23:00.003+08:00

Lately i keep on worrying about things i shouldn't be worried about. I keep on worrying about losing my love ones, worry about losing things that's precious to me, worry about losing whatever i have.

I dunnoe..

I guess it's just a passing phase... But this have always made me drift into my world of thoughts and its not healthy.... =(

Imissyou.Can'twaittoseeyousoon.

With Love,
Irfan

Been a while.....

2009-05-12T02:13:00.005+08:00

Been a while since i put up a real entry... and i noticed how my entries are always like a wall of text which is really a strain to people's eyes... But ah.. Thats what online diary is really about right?

Ah, but of course i won't bore whoever that's reading this site with text... Just a review of what had happened over the past few weeks,

I got caught / stopped by 5 TP bikes on the highway. ( Dammit! )
We caught a penguin from a big mean machine and now he's residing over at love's place.
Xiaohei is now all comfy at my place
Drafted out a wishlist for love..
Many many more!! Muahahahahahaha

It's a penguin~~

The penguin cannot be "kiap" head on or on the body.. you got to use strategy.. "Kiap" the kiap on the side of the penguin, which will make the penguin topple to it's side, and then it will drop into the hole whilst doing backflip. =D

Mini hotpot and grilling session over at Glutton's Bay, Makan Sutra.. *burp*

And how we're kind of like into Hongkong stuff... Nah.. This particular Hongkong cafe at Cine.. Nice ambience when it's not crowded... And the Hotpot session was simply fabulous la.. although only the two of us, but it was a company aplenty.. =D

Ahhh... Lab assessment is coming up. Bleah! LOUSY!

PS: I love you bee..

With Love,
Irfan

2009-05-09T16:51:00.001+08:00

and yes, the running totally killed my thighs and calf. i can hardly climb a flight of stairs any faster than my grandma!!

hahaha, and that is just the very start of our exercising regime! it's just the beginning. we still have a long long way to go man. huray to napfa!! and huhuhuray to slimming dowwwwwwwwwwwwwn~!!

with love,
alicia

Lately

2009-05-08T05:04:00.003+08:00

I've been very demanding and it's taking a toll on love.. We finally ran today after much procastination.

Anyways, we were shopping and we came across this very very nice wallet which we thought will be a very good buy.. =)

The next one on our wish list =)

Yeah... It's kind of late now.. Will update pictures in the next post. Keep a look out!

With Love,
Irfan

2009-05-07T00:40:00.002+08:00

hello all! been quite long since this site has been updated. currently am doing my adult nursing project, super duper boring!! school is like freaking stressful by the day can?! last year liao!! have to puuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuull up my freaking socks man!! lols.

lab test up next mon. it's just the 4th week!! and another lab test up on the following week, 5th week! oh dearrrrrrrrrrrr me dear myyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

there's a musical this year for NYP. but i won't be joining. i wish i could. i wish i'm in like year 1 or 2. then i will join. but as for now, i really can't afford that. got to buck up man! my aim this sem is to bring my GPA up to 3. pretty far away from where i am now. but i shall TRY!!

kkk, back to project!! update again~

with love,
alicia

my loves

2009-04-30T17:22:00.002+08:00

current location, baby's house. sitting on his chair in front of his laptop. with him sleeping soundly on bed, and xiaohei sleeping soundly in his cage. his father outside, reading some books, and nothing else more for me other than being online.

auditions are almost up, just one more to go, and we're going to have a welcome party for our freshies. pay came, and i went to get myself a new dance heels. been wanting to get it for like god knows how long. until my heels cannot tahan my dancing already. one part of the heel chui liao. haha.

life has been alright, a little cock-ups here and there, a little problems along the way, but everything is still good. baby's been put through quite alot. hope you'll overcome everything ok bee? people makes mistakes. as long as one is willing to admit to it, and don't do it again. don't have to worry about how people look and say. no doubt it definitely affects, but the fact is, in reality, one can't satisfy everybody, one can't make everyone see things the way he/she do.

had a long catching up with grace, and it was great. she's a freaking working adult now! hahaha. wellwell, jiayou yea girl! (: we shall meet up again very soon. heehee.

ok, blabbered alot liao. i shall stop here.

with love,
alicia

On a Sunday evening

2009-04-26T17:45:00.004+08:00

This week been a pretty hectic week, especially for love. All the time i will keep on seeing her nodding her head off to god knows where.. I wish i can take all that tiredness away.. Really.

We were busy shopping for our crazy camping trip

House of Chincilla called just now, and they said that they have ordered the hamster cage that we wanted! =) And yup, we bought two, to house MaoMao and XiaoHei, which is not not so xiao anymore.. He's getting bigger, faster and naughtier!

We kind of missed our kushinbo outing because of our hectic schedules, but we will definitely make up for it and will of course post up delicious photos of what we're going to eat for all to envy... Muahahahha.. I love Japanese cuisine.

And love just love to push the trolley..

Will be fetching Love later from Tampines1 to come over my house to slack jack molack.

OH! And it's about time to leave the house, to grab a suprise for love before i fetch her.

Stay tuned friends. =)

To my darling,

2009-04-23T03:18:00.004+08:00

Happy 100th
i love you.
10000 lifetime more.

With Love,
Irfan

Today

2009-04-20T20:07:00.006+08:00

I am typing this in the school library as i am waiting for love to end her dance training. Sigh.. Each time i feel like i am some psychopath peeping into the dance studio watching you dance, smiling to myself.. And that is all it takes for me to start to put my hands up in a frame, and imagination of me dancing with you start to play in my head.. I want to dance with you. Just me and you.

School started after 5weeks worth of holidays. Love and me are just NOT that ready for school. The holiday mood still lingers in us, from the very tip of our hair to every nooks of our toenail. But anyways we made a couple of plans for this week..

One of which, is to bring back our new addition to our family HeiHei aka XiaoHei.. =) Hopefully we can bring her back by friday from House of Chincilla.. He's a cute black medium long haired syrian that's just 22 days younger than MaoMao.. Wait up for his picture ya!

The other day, my beloved brother went to take a dump in the master bedroom toilet and god the smell sure travels right to my room. Honestly i nearly fainted as i was sitting on my computer chair in my room when his essence of excretion hits my nasal choncae. When he left the toilet, i rushed there to close the door, which was a bad mistake because the smell was so overpowering that i teared in my eyes and nearly choke on my vomit. In the process of shutting the door, i left my fingers at the door frame, thus shutting the doors into my pitiful fingers. SAD! For the record, my brother said that he have not shitted for nearly two weeks. WTF! Hhaahahahha!

Next up will be a trip down to Kushinbo for a nice dinner that love deserved for being the best best girlfriend in the whole wide world. I guess words just can't justify the huge amount of things that she have done for me and us. I love you.

Library will be closing soon, i will post this up and attach pictures of what was taken this week when i get home later.. Can't wait to seeing you again love.

++++++++++++

Oh ya... On the weekend, love went over to my place, we managed to scare the shit out my brother while he is playing left 4 dead. We rock socks docks coocadoodle! And yes, counted the very very full milk bottle. Ultimate shiokness counting money.

Love with the full milk bottle of $1 coins.

And it's $780 worth of 'em.

We deposited until the machine cannot take in anymore coins!! WTH!

The fish and chips that looks like a rodent deep-fried. Yuck..

And love, aspiring to do taxi driving, part-time. =D

With Love,
Irfan

2009-04-20T02:05:00.007+08:00

ah, been a long time since this space is been updated. let me just give your eyes a feast on my super cute hamster. now officially named as maomao (毛毛). heh! he is super fucking cute i tell you!

but his balls for some reason has grown REALLY huge now as you would see from the following pics. hahaha. and he's growing lazy too. ):

days have been all filled up with dance stuff, bf, and hamsters. the job i had previously, no longer wants his part-timers anymore. sucks. blah~ school's reopening later at 10am. i shall hit the sack real soon.

toodles and enjoy the pics people!

i eat!
and sleep!
and sleep in my food tube too. (don't know how he manage to put the beddings at the opening when he's sleeping on the inside. -.- )
and open my big wide mouth, try to stuff food into my food pouch!
and play peek-a-boo!!
heehee, see he so greedy.
yumyum
and out i come after eating! =D
preparing to,
sleep.

with love,
alicia

2009-04-16T03:57:00.002+08:00

ahh, hammie hammie so cute!! lol. recently have been very busy with dance. practices after practices. preparation after preparation for club crawl. so tired!

anyways, hammie have a new sleeping area now. it's a hamhead. and he loves it inside there. he sleeps inside, eat inside, and even shit inside sometimes. thank god hammie is toilet trained, so he don't pee inside too.

but ever since we got him a hamhead, he become lazy liao. seldom see him run on the wheel le. ):

blah, tomorrow will be another busy day. need to search for tube for club crawl performance, need to go school buy books, baby need to go for some briefing in school, need to go deposit my manymany $1 coins, need to go make my contact lens, blablablahhh.

anyways, school reopening soon. that's like bloody fast laaa! gahhhh!
@.@

with love,
alicia

Easter Sunday

2009-04-15T18:44:00.009+08:00

Ahhh... Its few more days and school holidays will end. 5 weeks passed by so fast! Ridiculous!!!! The end of this holidays will mark our Year 3 in Poly, which means, another 6 months of stupendous studying plus another 6 months of the much dreaded hospital attachments and PRCP.

I WANT TO DANCE WITH YOU!

Anyways, love have been very very very busy with dance lately due to the upcoming club crawl and me on the other hand will be coordinating the student mentors for the upcoming SHS orientation.

Oh.. On Easter Sunday,We played left 4 dead and yeah! We're very much like a professional noob.. Letting all the hunters jump at us, the boomers bleaching at us and the smokers choking us... But we pretty much took our revenge in the end.. =D

Picture purposely put small small so you all won't die of extreme salivation.

Instead of having easter eggs or bunny burgers, love and me had Ben & Jerry's fiesta! Strawberry Cheesecake, Chocolate fudge & Vanilla.... Yum Yum plus plus! And followed by the movie Knowing... Pretty interesting.. but the ending is super crap lah.. What garden of Eden all start to appear.. Pfffts..

Will be heading to Chinatown in a while to search for the brand Cooee.. =) Happy Monthlyversarry love. =) Many many more! I love you. =D

Soup and Butter Kaya toast supper at a Hong Kong Cafe in Cine.. =P Before Movie.

With Love,
Irfan

Dear...

2009-04-12T05:06:00.012+08:00

I miss you already... how?

Baby, everytime i say i love you, even if i say it a thousand times a day, each time i say them, i mean everyone of it. I can say enough to tell you how much i love you. I really love you... really really do..

With Love,

Irfan

Napfa in Japanese School

2009-04-11T04:03:00.003+08:00

Okay...amidst all this HS (Hamster Siao) events, you might want to check out a monkey and a dog doing their Napfa test. WTF!!!! Haaahaahha!

Today me and love bought a bottle of Snapple and the interesting fact of the day is....
"Dragonflies have 6 legs (Ya.. insects? Duh!) but they cannot walk."

OOOOOooooooOOOoo...

With Love,
Irfan

Art

2009-04-08T21:06:00.004+08:00

I seriously think i suck at art... Am helping love to do her stuff for the upcoming club crawl. It's just some simple painting that i have to do on a tongue depressor, but i just can't get it right. Instead of helping, i think i caused the association an extra work to do. Love have to repaint the depressor that i painted because it seriously look like something painted by a art-idiot. Damn.

Come to think of it.. What am i good at? Hrmm.. Nothing?

The other time, from love's post below, you can see some prawning pictures... Yup. Went prawning with love , Kenneth and Grace. Mananged to catch a substancial amount of prawns within 3 hours.

Love was the fisher while i am the hooker. I hook the bait, she fish for the prawn.. Hahahahha.. And love have this unique way of drawing the prawns out. She will BODY SLAM the prawn on the metal grill fence that act as a barrier between us and the prawn infested pond.

Steps to success in prawning. (The A.I way)

Step1: Hook Bait.
Step2: "AH.. lai liao lai liao...." BANG! BODY SLAM! "Bee... prawn.."
Step3: *Unhook prawn, rehook bait*
Step4: Wait for the BANG again. Repeat step 1. =D

Love is soooo adorable! =D Next time round, i'll cook and peel the prawn for you to savour ya?

Oh.. Our hamster now have two different treats. Sunflower seed and Yoghurt drops. Yoghurt drops can you believe it? Hamster eating yoghurt... Hahahahaha

With Love,
Irfan

BUSY!

2009-04-07T03:59:00.008+08:00

have been busy for the part few days.

work, dance, hammie, not enough time! my feet or rather the whole of my leg, SO TIRED!! ah, but everyday, when see bee and hammie, feel so happy. (:

anyways, bee and me gotten our first hamster liao! and it's decided that his name will be hammie. yes, it's a he. MALE! hahaha. and he is damn cute and adoring i tell you!! ahhh, can't resist. currently residing at my house, soon will move over to bee's house le.

ah, words can't define what i want to say. shall let the pics do the talking. =D
pics are uploaded in a super random manner, in no order. i'm too lazy+tired to scort them out. lol.

all have been busy for the part few days.

work, dance, hammie, not enough time! my feet or rather the whole of my leg, SO TIRED!! ah, but everyday, when see bee and hammie, feel so happy. (:

anyways, bee and me gotten our first hamster liao! and it's decided that his name will be hammie. yes, it's a he. MALE! hahaha. and he is damn cute and adoring i tell you!! ahhh, can't resist. currently residing at my house, soon will move over to bee's house le.

ah, words can't define what i want to say. shall let the pics do the talking. =D

So sad..

2009-04-07T03:22:00.002+08:00

Okay. I teared at this.

With Love,
Irfan

I will do this for our family too..

2009-04-06T18:18:00.004+08:00

A son asked his father, "Dad, will you take part in a marathon with me?" The father who despite having a heart condition, said, "Yes".

They went on to complete the marathon together. Father and son went on to join other marathons, the father always saying, "Yes" to his son's request of going through the race together.

One day, the son asked his father, 'Dad, let us join the Ironman together; to which his father said, "Yes", too.

For those who don't know, Ironman is the toughest triathlon ever. The race consists of three endurance events of a 2.4 miles (3.86 kilometers) ocean swim followed by a 112 miles (180.2 kilometers) bike ride and ending with a 26.2 miles (42.195 kilometers) marathon along the coast of the Big Island.

Father and son went on to complete the race together.Based on the TV interview of Dick and Rick Hoyt, Dick, the father explained that Rick while still in his mother's womb, the umbilical chord was wrapped around his neck cutting off oxygen to the brain. And when Rick was born, the doctor who was looking after Rick told Dick and his wife that Rick would never be able to walk nor talk all his life that it would be best that they put him away.

But the Hoyts would not be willing to do such a thing and decided to bring him home instead and decided likewise to treat him just like anyone normal kid. So that when the family went for a swim, Rick went with them and so on and so forth.

It was one day while wathing TV (if my memory serves me right) that Rick saw a benefit marathon for a paralityc child and he wanted to be a part of the benefit marathon. And that started both father and son with their races even while Dick had a heart condition and Rick himself was not well all the time.

In fact there were two years where they were not able to join the races because Dick had a heart attack and the other year was that (if I remember it correctly now, Rick was the one who had a problem. And also based on an article that I read about them, both had so far completed 212 triathlons, 4 15-hour Inronmans. And that it was two years back from today, when Dick had his heart attack, and his doctor said, had it not been his good physical condition on account of the races, he would have died 15 years ago. Both then via the races have served one another in a loving and wonderful way.

Dick humbly said in the interview when he was called a hero by the interviewer, "I just simply love my family". And indeed, he loved them even as he loved Rick that much that he committed himself to do the tough physical demands of the races and the triathlons, the Ironman that his son may have the chance to enjoy the races and be a part of life.

And in a return show of love and appreciation, Rick says this of his father, "Dad is my hero."And to end my inputs on the father and son, I'd like to end what Rick says that he likes most...(Rick types using a special machine), he says, "The thing I most like is my dad sit in the chair and I push him once."

How touching!

With Love,
Irfan

Hamster Ball can bounce too!

2009-04-05T16:50:00.004+08:00

If fishballs can bounce, so can hamsters! Eh.... What's the link? Alright, we are both officially HS. Hamster siao. Hammie is our pet hamster. Will take a family potrait soon. =D

With Love,
Irfan

WheeSung!

2009-04-05T07:27:00.003+08:00

Friday

2009-04-04T02:09:00.004+08:00

A long day today, but i am not complaining. Love slept only for two hours because she is so busy doing research about hamsters. Can say both of us became HS ( Hamster Siao).
I sat at the void deck, imagining me and you setting up the home.
We're kind of bent on buying Pudding hamster, done research here and there, but ended buying a Syrian breed instead. A Golden Satin Syrian, Hammie. =)
Having a pet of our own is like having a kid. And that just makes me can't wait to settle down with you.
So today hammie followed us around Singapore, from Serangoon North to Orchard to Plaza Singapura till Marina Square and back to Ang Mo Kio before heading home. I suppose love will post up pictures of Hammie in a while, so yup. We're both proud to be taking care of Hammie.
Baby, i love you..
Today, while riding back, i got zero concentration on the road. Just can't seems to focus my attention on anything that have got to do while riding. I don't know why. =( But of course i managed to reach home safely.
Dear, not 4... but 3...
Goodnight Hammie.

With Love,
Irfan

2009-04-03T02:00:00.002+08:00

Can't wait for our pet hamster to be bought! what shall we name it? most probably will be pronounced as hammie. but spelling?

hammee?
hammie?
hammy?
hammi?

or some other nicer names?? hmmmm...

with love,
alicia

有没有口罩一个给我....

2009-03-24T03:46:00.001+08:00

也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药.

Smoking

2009-03-24T03:14:00.002+08:00

I fucking hate u. Keep on appearing in my head, keep on taunting me to take a puff at you. I fucking hate you for doing this to me. I can't even hold things properly. I can't even breathe in without having the illusion of that stupid taste at the back of my throat. Even when i made my throat sore, so that i know i am in no condition to smoke you, you still come and taunt me. Leave me alone... I need to quit..

FUCK ME

2009-03-23T04:13:00.002+08:00

For pushing things to far.. now i made u think that life is a joke and made u extremely upset. I fucking hate myself for this.

East Coast Park

2009-03-22T16:17:00.003+08:00

Camping was fun, when it's with you.
And now i am looking forward to holidaying with you...
At times, i do wonder how i can get so addicted to you.
You, my brand of heroin.

For the record, an abstract from the song which i want you to hear;

I will never leave you, I will stay here with you.
Through the good and bad I will stand true.
I'm in love with you.
Now we're here together,
Yesterday has passed,
Life is just beginning,
Close to you at last.
And I promise to you,
I will always be there,
I give my all to you.

Dear

2009-03-13T09:47:00.000+08:00

A love letter for you later, after work....

Kodak Moments in life.

2009-03-10T08:04:00.003+08:00

Family photos never been this happier for this boy. Check out his itchy itchy fingers squeezing an elder's Pi Pi... Tsk tsk tsk. Squishy squashy.

Darling darling!!!!!!! We will have many many happy family photos too k love!
Damn cute right? I thought the might end up fighting, but instead they cuddle. Awwww..
I can still smell your face... i can still taste your kiss..

That woman gonna get the holiest out of all holy water. Come Come! Sprinkle holy water on me!
The night sleep was the best... I can't wait to start spending my life with you.

Excellent. If your kid can fit into a shoe box, you'll probably do that too!
Will we do that to our baby too? Hhahahahaha.. Hope not!

Teeeeheeeheeee *woof*.
As bad as it sounds, a dog is still a dog k love.. No out of ordinary care. Look at his smug face. Grrr..

My all time favourite. Not only do they shit on people but on vehicles too. Sigh. We can only thank god that cows don't fly.
Don't worry love, even if cows can fly, i'll make sure that non of their poo hit you. I'll shelter you, i'll protect you. Serious!

Darling.. I love you.

A carefree life,

2009-03-09T01:26:00.006+08:00

With love.
I super super enjoy the camping trip baby...
Hahahahaa.. Went for our first camping trip over at East Coast Park. Despite the lack of radio and other entertainments, we enjoyed ourselves tremendously. =D Woke up feeling damn fresh at 7.30am in the morning! Got to watch the last glimpse of sunrise, walked around the beach.... cooked noodles, canned foods under the hot hot sun.
While cooking i keep on looking at you.. i don't know why...
=D Happy happy!
It's like you're making me falling in love with you over and over again...
We cycled from one end to the other of East Coast taking rest stops in between... Here and there, i can't help but to keep on looking at love while cycling. To be honest, i nearly crashed plenty of times because my gaze was really really fixed on her. There was once where i drifted onto the grass patch. Hahahahaha.. You don't know cause i quickly got back onto the track.
Yes... i just can't take my eyes of you... bet you didn't know.
The ride back from the camping trip was one hell of a ride too! On the way back, we passed by Benjamin Sheares bridge, and yes! There was this beautiful sunset, silhouette-ing the tall skyscrapers in the CBD district. We screamed and woohoo-ed while riding, with love holding tight.. What more can i ask for?
While riding back i told myself that i will love you with everything that i got. Everything.
Yes, i want more of such camping trips, next time we'll get to a better spot, we'll cab instead of biking there. I think we looked like a runaway circus troop with all that bag of ours while on the bike. Don't you agree love?
Hope you can see, that i'm not holding back anymore. Do you know each time we have to say goodbye for the day, i wish i can have one more kiss.
ps: If 3 is too short, and if it is still early to tell..
Why can't you see, that this is how i really want it to be?
Yes, i can't wait.

If i only have got one week left,
I will spend it with you and my family.
I will touch your face and look into your eyes.
That's all i want to do. To be with you. To keep you with me. Till my eyes close for eternity.
A.I (Alicia.Irfan 爱... A.I residence, 爱 residence)
I love you.

Work

2009-03-03T06:06:00.004+08:00

I can't help but to count......
By, i love you.. =D
9 more freaking dayssaaaahhh!!!!
Soooo happy to see you just now you know? =D
Found a new carpark at love's place. Gonna park there from now on to prevent all the stupid Chubb personnel from summoning my bike.
By, I feel so cheeky here, i'm beginning to believe you don't know the existence of this secret message..
Hrmmm.. i want to go picnic soon..... =(

This damn rain...

2009-03-02T05:38:00.002+08:00

I think i might really have some problems managing my finances this year really. So many hiccups here and there.. Speaking of which the darn bike too.
I wonder if you can see all this hidden messages....
Today i realised that the stupid front wheel was leaking due to a bad tyre bump at the water groove. No wonder my bike have this 'clock clock clock' sound when it moves. I usually like rainy weather but lately its kind of getting on my nerve.. Notice nerve, not nerves. Only one left! Grrr!
I know some i made it pretty obvious, but still..
Now my helmet has this stinko rain smell because i failed to anticipate the rain when i parked my bike in an open carpark with the helmet hung on my bike, just like a begger's bowl, ready to catch every drop of water that it possibly could.
Baby, i regret doing what i've done last time.. look at you now, sigh... i made you doubt love. stupid me. I only got myself to blame.
Ya. The helmet did. It could have bred guppies if i have left it there for a week or so. Oh, my and love manage to catch Not that into you, Marley and me and Bloody Valentine 3D (not so 3D)..
Baby.. It's really stabbing me.. It's killing me. It's eating me from inside, to see you like this.
Not that into you is up up! A little too many plots in one movie but the emotions, the happy ending (some of it) just simply make me want to rate the movie 4 out of 5. =D (It's a chick flick, so be warned!)
When you said you are scared, you don't want me to say things for the sake of saying,
Marley and me, ah... Just like all novels, redirected into a movie... They just failed to show the ooomph as compared to when you read the book. Have not read Marley and me? Don't. Watch the movie first, then read. =D The show, very saddddddddddd.... =( 3.5 out of 5.
Do you know that you took away all the words away from me? I've got nothing to say...
My Bloody Valentine 3d however, don't watch at bloody GV.. i think Cathay can do a better job with the old skool 3d glasses. I don't see any 3d at all lor... Suppose to be 3d.. My finger shadows can do a better job. Okay la, at least GV charged the normal price, but Cathay will charge 3 bucks higher because they provide the glasses for the 3d effect. The show managed to make me jumpy, but the ending super anti-climax for me. A psychopath movie with a twist of abnormal psychology and behavioural modification in it. Bleah! 2.45982 out of 5 for GV.
Sigh, baby... if one day something happen to me how? Will you know that i really love you?